We dance together, Bill and I, and there’s a lot of listening. And a whole lot of imagination. Bill is always talking about imagination. And the thing I really like about imagination is it’s not real until you make it real—and it can bring total opposites together. Imagination is about creating external concepts that can become present to the senses. So it’s about touching something that isn’t there, but you can hear it. A creative life is adapted every day. You have to eat, breathe, and live this art world thing. Making something needs to happen every day, even if it’s only one precious performance with a total stranger. It’s crazy and stupid, and Bill makes me realize there isn’t just one way to accomplish finding folks—who are just as crazy enough, and willing enough—to give me a chance in this world. Those people reward, and they are worth finding, fighting for, and chasing after. I am articulated by the road I make, and I try my absolute best to pay attention. It isn’t easy. Bill isn’t easy. But I don’t think I want to do things because they’re easy. I want to do things because they make me great.
I recognize in a lot of ways I’m still figuring out my exact mission. Along the way I’m excited to establish platforms that allow voices to be heard. Bill encourages that. The part that I’m not unsure about is that I really like photography. Seeing how Bill energizes conversations motivates me to be a louder voice and a harder worker. Bill and I continue to come back to each other. People ask me why sometimes, or how? Well the truth is Bill teaches me how to be myself. He teaches me that it’s ok to be myself, but more importantly he lets me be myself and he wants more of it. Myself is desirable and worthy. I wouldn’t exactly say that either of us are easy personalities. But if I could be a good little gay boy for a moment and quote Marilyn Monroe, “I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”